Having an addictive personality sucks.
I always have an addiction. Cigarettes, fapping, smoking weed, whatever. My latest is... unboxing CS:GO cases. I don't even care about winning, my brain fucking lights up when I unbox a case. It's addictive as fuck, am I gonna win? Or lose again? What will I get? I just removed my CC from Steam, I've sunken in 50$ already and that's too much.
Anyone else with an addictive personality kick these shitty cravings for instant gratification? When I'm without an addiction I'm completely useless. Can't even get out of bed, and I struggle to do that as is.
Not to mention my longest standing addiction, gaming. I always need to be playing SOMETHING or else reality feels so... empty.
I just wish my brain was normal and that I could function without there always being a carrot on a stick in front of me.
Literally have been this way since I was 10 or so.
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